And before you get too excited – nope, no babies here. Or cute puppies (sadly) although I encourage you to keep reading, regardless!
The very first wedding I ever shot is still clear as day in my mind. It was the smallest, sweetest backyard wedding with close friends and family – and I’m about 99% sure I charged maybe $300 because I truly had no clue what I was doing. Yes I could work a camera, but I had been to maybe two weddings before this, and I had no idea what I was jumping into.
With that said – it was one of the best leaps of faith I’ve ever made. I fell completely in love with every aspect of weddings. The gorgeous flowers, the crazy bridal parties, the love that truly envelops a room when the bride and groom walk in, and God bless that mother that just has to make sure everything is set up just right. After a few years of shooting weddings I even interned with a wedding planner for no pay and all fun – I truly just loved to serve people as they celebrated their best day ever.
And although I’ve loved every minute of watching brides and grooms start their new adventure, I’ve missed out on many adventures of my own.
You see – there’s a lot of things you just don’t think about when you book your photographer. As you check off “photography” in your beautiful wedding planner, my check box looks a lot different. I don’t get to check off time with my husband + pup, time with my family, time with my friends – I rarely check off time to just have a normal Saturday. I’ve missed birthday parties, weddings and bridal showers for friends, ballgames, pool days, road trips, binge watching Netflix and never leaving the couch – and it was okay, because I knew I was going to capture the beginning of something amazing, your wedding day.
It’s rare that I’m just a photographer for your wedding. Chances are – we’ve planned out your whole wedding day timeline together, I’ve helped a bridesmaid chase down the groomsmen who’ve gotten ahead on the cocktail hour, I’ve held your bouquet for you almost as much as you have that day, and I’ve made sure I’ve given you a big hug before you head off on your honeymoon (and probably your parents too) You can bet I’m following along on your new journey and cheering you on with every Facebook like and double tap on Instagram. And I don’t plan on changing that.
But y’all, I’m tired.
Truth be told, I’m more than tired. I’m exhausted. I’m burnt out. I need some time to focus on my husband, who’s been SO amazing in cheering me on since I started this journey with him as my boyfriend. I need time to focus on my family, and even just myself.
At this time, and until further notice, the few weddings I have already booked for 2018 will be my last for now. I have so many things I want to do with this business and for my couples. But on top of working a full time job I am completely in love with at Nu expression, this portion of my life has to take a back burner before I no longer enjoy it. During this downtime I will finally have time to work on my new website, create my new logo, and blog the dozens of gorgeous sessions + weddings I just don’t have time to work on right now.
Since making this decision there have definitely been a few tears, because I know this is where my heart is. But there is so much weight lifted knowing I can take this break and come back stronger than ever and be intentional with every business decision I make.
Thank you to every single couple that’s entrusted me to spend their wedding journey with them. From the time you show up giddy and nervous to your engagement session, to the day of your bridals where I’ll fix your dress a minimum of 500 times, to the day you become one, and share the most heartfelt vows – I have loved every second. And I can’t wait to see what’s to come..